...speaking of things that won't go away

I thought I was done, but I guess I'm not. I'm reeling right now, I probably will be for a while. And it does hurt me. It still hurts. I didn't realize it until today but it hurts so fucking bad. I want to un-realize it. I want her to go away again.

If not for Lissy and Aerial this moment could have gone much much worse. And I really don't care if you think I'm overreacting, because as I pointed out on the 11th I'm the only one who says what's important and what's not. I say this is a big deal. Because it is. You figure out the point of this bullshit, because I really don't know the point. anditskillingme

Love,

Alice